ღ 124 i m touched

Dude , i m so touched with what dex said lol .. that he will never forget me but i know as friend lol...he kind nice and sweet instead of his big bro who claiming that he afraid of me in one camp for how many year i still remember clearly what he mean... Thanks dex ! I m touched by u ..

ღ 123 27 october

Today , i wake up around 7 something then i didn` take bath cause too cold for a shower then just refresh face and change clothes to uniform . After that , wait for van meanwhile the van passing by but didn`t stop ask to wait for another turn . Reach college and go to bakery to buy buns then go to level 4 to ask Pn Habibah to sign my log book cause that time i forget to pass up to her . Buy the stuft to cover the log book then faster put on her table . Go to Giant with evelyn buy a few things needed to use at Kuantan . Back to college again and ask what time the log book can taken . Back to dorm . Packing up , bath and done my laundry . I cook porridge to eat for lunch with simple lettuce and spicy tofu . Waiting around 3 pm , walk to college with evelyn to take log book and she buy things . Back to dorm around 4 pm , finish packing and put the bags down to living room . Around 5 pm , Mr Amin call and said " this fri nite , only go to kuantan not tonight cause no transport and i ald call ur clinical instructor there to delay 2 days , don`t worry ! " . Bath again . Now blogging , twitter and facebook .

ღ 122 shock

Oh God , i get my nerves up cause i got shock lol . Just now , yu lin sms me about tomorrow going to kuantan . I last min only know so now i going to start pack my things in the bags . Then get ready to college tomorrow in morning and then later get ready to kuantan soon . Now i just recall , i forget to pass up the log book to let Pn Habibah to sign ...Damn tomorrow i must be get scolded and get her sign is the important things . So goodnight

ღ 121 25 oct

Yesterday , i back to kl again from my hometown penang . Around 2 pm , reach puduraya station then went to take cab back to dorm which cost me RM 15 . Then back , put bags down and straight went to washroom then here come back izati then evelyn . So tired lol yesterday

ღ 120 24 Oct

Thanks girl ! I guess i got nice day after that part . Around 2 pm , i reach at Gurney meanwhile waiting for angie but her sis went out to find vacany then she need to wait her mum to back to home around 3.15 pm i guess . I know emily and elspeth is going out . Before that , i alone went to Popular to look for something that can attract me but fail to find one .I was boring while waiting for angie then i joined with emily and elspeth who together with her brothers and friend . I met with Jie Ying , my tuition friend . Then we went to Mega first , angie is coming soon . After that , i went out to find her or stop her from going to mega . I met with heeral and simran .. so long didn`t see them in ages . Here come angie , then we together went to washroom and both of us went to Breeks . Then we walk around the store ...the shinny shoe ! Meanwhile , i was asking for the price of the eyeliner from M.A.C / Benefit / Sasa and Shue Mura . Then we went to Popular , she could not make her decision to buy which dictionary . Then we went to MCD . After we went home . Meanwhile , i went to Tari Cafe with my parent . Oh God , whole day i was coughing .Later in night , i together with my father went to see doctor .

ღ119

Why am i under this ? I feel so suffer when pain is here . I really hate my health to be sick like that i wish i could be well without taking medicine but cannot i need the medicine to over my pain , i relay myself again thinking one day i could be well but i m afraid so . I think nothing really matter  me now to keep ownself by myself to be stronger i really vow to be .. Anyways , i have long life i think cause when i nearly death i was saved like std 2 and std 5  . I trust this time also same but i have no confidence anymore ....god pls give me the stronger believe and confidence u have on everyone i beg u

ღ118 present or what

Today , i actually buying nurse watch cause that one come from mahsa one is very heavy to carry so replace it with new one . But i was attracted to the watch then my mum really buy for me but as birthday present or what i also don`t know . I wanna twilight book  in full set as present from my mum . Just now , drive my mum to bank then together go to eat and she drive back . But anyways , i also happy today.... Guess  what brand ar : Casio ...!! and it is pink in color ...so sweet and i loved it

ღ117 my weekend in penang

Woah...i kind of forget to blog this post but nvm i  didn`t follow according days ...Mon i got deepavali nite dinner with yokes but only left me alone who went to her invitation the rest kind of busy and jit jit forget to bring her hp out ... So left me but anyway i still happy cause she is my best childhood friend i known so long in times . Her mum keeping asking me to eat more and more , i just take a bit of the food cause i watching my weight like what my doctor asked me to do so .Then around 9 something , my parents called and i went down with her accompany and said to her Goodbye .... but keep in touch . Back at home so late and forget to blog until today ... i sudden remembered back .  Onward : tues , wed , thursday nothing special to write cause i always in my home keep watching night journey ..Right i remembered back : on tues , i drove car to eat mee goreng at Jalan Bangkok and my mum drove to hospital to check up but the doctor on leave she don`t know and we went back and on  wed , my mum and i went to Aquatic Cafe to eat but the fish and chips quite unfresh expect the french fries and the cooking got fired and made us need to bath again cause to the smelly oil ...

ღ116 what is life

Life is full of sorrow and hope depend on everyone light but if u find ur light must keep it beside u cause it will guide u in ur life pathway always if not u will keep staying in darkness never wake up anymore and must move on to find a suitable light . Sorrow probably is normal thing in everything within human life . Hope depend on faith if got light around u , just follow it . Help  will always there for u - this phrase i got from my best best guy friend i ever had , chris . Thanks i m ok with all the flavor and help around me . Try to being assertive person

ღ115 shake myself up

Now , my health keep shaking myself  . Just like today , i take 800 mg medicine . My hand still shaking meanwhile typing . As fact , i just must take only 400 mg a day today i take overdose but still pain and shaking .

ღ114 fallen angels

Girls and probably guy  are like a fallen angels when we face into a innocent situation or difficult situation which we become a victim or a winner most of it is love or relationship . Love perhaps first time like addiction but in times , love probably like  a game to get hurt or be hurt by the other partner . When we fall , we grow up instead of living in the pass which full with the memories which is sweet or bitter one . But we need to keep moving on for the others not that partner which hurt u or been hurt by u . Fallen angels for some is making mistake in the pass life or pass time with other partner . We need to move on from fallen angels to angels back again be urself in  everytime making a decision probably some in a rushy time or sweet time .  We are not alone in the world so making phrase for urself to move on with full confidence .

ღ113 just back

Just back from kl to my hometown penang , i miss my family and friend a lot . I got around until this sun 25 , i m going back kl for briefing then go to kuantan. Woah ! Yesterday is happy deepavali , i go to jit jit home for deepavali dinner before that i go to Tesco and Queensbay to walk walk with parents . Arrive at jit jit home around 7.30 pm , aly and angie ald arrived there . Last min , yokes should sms me instead of jit jit telling me that she cannot go cause she didn`t have transport then i can turn to her home to pick her up  .We had dinner ( yummy , the food is quite delicious espically the fried chicken ..) . After that ,we had our girl talk  and after that , we took pic with jit jit camera and some of our hp . Some of us drink beer include me , angie and jit jit perhaps a bit for aly . Then here come arwanie at jit jit home after that  we had our girl talk again . Then aly and angie back to their home and around 9.45 pm , my parents arrived then pick me and arwanie up and then drop arwanie at her home and back home .

ღ 112 today

Just today is the first day i wear my uniform in college and taking picture with friend and the classmate also in random picture and our formal picture . Take pic so vain or not, after that back to dorm and do laundry 

ღ 111 new url and twitter

My new url for my blog is request from my best girl friend ever had : http://muffintiffanychengshuee.blogspot.com/ AND a new twitter is created by me to update my thinking and share with  my friends.

ღ 110 she back

She back and she gain her freedom after losing that guy but she still has us beside her not matter how far we are or how far i am .Now i very worry with u , pls get over it and back to urself that emily i know for very long time who she is quite strong and kind of girl . Looking  back  urself now , did u feel that u have change ald ? I did . Today , morning wake up around 9.30 am then sleep back until 10 am wake up and bath . Then prepare myself after that go out with my angels include aly , angie and emily . I miss her and the others also . I go take bus to Perangin Mall * in the bus i think i m going to doom soon but i ask angie to meet at the komtar but she kind of lost her direction just now then walk to wait for aly then  together go gurney plaza . After we reach there , we go to A&W to eat our breakfast or lunch . Then we buy ticket for 4 adult for Sorority Row around 3.20 pm , then we walk around the floor level like Popular , S&J , Toy R Us and others meanwhile wait for emily arrival . We rush to the cinema buy popcorn and drinks then in the cinema hall . Inside  the cinema , the show kind of creepy sometime and most of time i close my eye after listen to one sound . We kind of afraid lol ~ but as for aly maybe a bit only . After that , we walk to Padini to look for shiny cute heels . We got one hour left at there after the show . Then we walk to Niichi and we kind of window shopper lol at there. We vain in the dressing room and we take picture in there : me and emily but i know got only one picture of 4 us vain in the Niichi . Then her mum call , i accompany her to the bus stop then i back to Niichi to wait for angie and aly . Then we go to Bread History to buy bakery , after that they back with aly dad car left me alone waiting for my parents around 7pm they arrive and take me to Perangin Mall to take picture in my uniform for the log book . Then we go to Red Garden Cafe to eat the Curry Fish Head where my parents love to go there . Like around 9.15 pm , we go back home . Just finish bath and now blogging about today memories .Going to upload our picture girlss...and my parents to ...!!

ღ 109 tears drop from

Tears drop from my eye when i recall the memories and i am not lonely  . Why girl most of time dropping tear ? Cause the time when they starting to trust something or someone enchanted their mind and soul in their mind : loyalty . Be glad girl , if we got each other no matter what the serious problem we going to face to face in our surrounding : a lot of support from the best girl we ever known . So start to move on if u not yet , if u started ald  keep up and girl , we will meet our Mr Right and sometime trusting the chinese zodiac and horoscope cause sometime maybe occured the same thing like written . But the most of time , be urself . Tears drop , we can wipe with tissue but wound in our heart we need time to slowly heal up . So use the time we had to heal up and move on .=3
Mily , we going to make our 1 st Twitter i m looking forward to it cause both of three of us got our own freedom back but in our heart still got the wound maybe a little heal up . I miss u girls.....Lucky me got the support from my best group girlfriend : NAIVE Princesses ( we going to start one blog about this ) . Touch our soul together with all feeling we ever had to someone . I hope this post can touch ur heart mily ...

ღ 108 exam end

Yeahhh !!Horray .... At last , mid term exam had ended . On Thursday , around 9.30 am until 10.30 am the communication & caunselling exam start and end . At least the question i can do cause i reading whole nite until 3 am only sleep . So sleepy in the exam hall but no allowed to sleep . After that , CI talking about the rules of clinical posting and the evening i go back penang . Then, i go take the shoes and wait for the van after that back to dorm to pack up my notebook and uniform back penang and i go bath . Meanwhile angie is talking with evelyn and make up at the same time . We take T634 to LRT Bangsar with some of my classmate and we buy ticket to Pasar Seni then we walk to Jalan Pudu . We sit 2.30 pm bus back to butterworth then take jetty to penang . My dad buy me the return ticket on this sun around 12 pm . On fri , i back penang but evening my mum take me to see doc in Loh Guan Lye one is Doc Goh and another one is Doc Chin . Walk here walk there then take lift back to car park . She go to the electric stores which nearby our home area cause her washing machince broken down .  Must buy new one lol... She ald reserve one around 14 kg and brand name is Toshiba as i know . Then we go to eat then back home . I whole day watch chinese tvb drama .

ღ 107 FON exam end

Today morning , Fundaments of nursing like u guy know that i just sleep until 7 am then bath then go to college . The question come out , Pn Habibah didn`t teach us at all need to use our own common sense . Haizz...!!Then go back dorm after at giant buying things , then i wake angie up . After that , i did my laundry and bath . I change to try my uniform to  fit me or not ! After that , we make up along with evelyn cause she wanna try to make the makeup deeper than usual . Capture her pic in hp .Then angie and me go to Pusat Bandar Utama , we take a bite at Subway sharing ~!! Then take rapid to lrt bangsar cost RM 1 . Then reach at there , directly buy ticket from the machine then take lrt to KL Sentral . At KL Sentral , we buy ticket to Subang Jaya to go to Sunway Pyramid . After that , we reach there and take mini bus cost us RM0.80 to Sunway Pyramid then we walk around to Popular then go to Canton-I to eat congee after that go to Elianto buy cosmetic and we walk to Niichi .. We try the clothes we like in the dressing room and we vain inside . Then we walk  around to find Digi Centre then ask us to go up then but notice that tomorrow only got reedem the ticket to All American Rejects Concerts . After that , we lost and i call kevin to help me out and he think i cry cause i m lost....!! After that there come the U62 rapid to Subang Jaya and we need to walk to KTM Subang Jaya . We directly buy ticket and walk across to the another station there . Waiting for ktm , we take pic there . Here coming the KTM , we sit just next to each other . After reach KL Sentral , we buy Rapid KL Lrt to Bangsar . At there , i understand why yesterday nite not have bus there . We waiting for bus but later we go in to 7 Eleven nearby and i go out meanwhile angie still inside . The bus come and i rush to call here . Back to Esso near Wisma Lensa then we walk back to dorm and lucky Abang Wan at there passing by and he take us to No.5 , Jalan Kasah Tepi and drop us off .. Thanks to him ..!! Angie reheat the food and we eat and go to take shower. Now  i m blogging plus my note just beside me ..:p!!Tomorrow i have Communication Exam include Caunselling and Professional Adjusement .

ღ 106 busy with exam

I been busy with my mid term exam revision and angie is here also showing her the college , dorm and the shopping mall around kl . I going to blog the date when i unable to update my blog at the same time stress with my studies . On tues , i got English test . finished around 11 am then waiting for the uniform and taking nursing things . After that , i and angie go out to lrt bangsar then take lrt to pasar seni then walk to puduraya to buy bus ticket back penang .After finish bought , walk to Jalan Alor nearby then visited angie auntie at there then go to Loong Kee at jalan alor to buy my parents favourite food  etc dried pork meat ( minced ) 1/2g cost me around 35.95 . Then back to Kl sentral with monorail and we did vain inside... she started it ...:P ! At KL Sentral , we took rapid kl lrt to bangsar . We waited for bus quite long then decided to take cab * stupid taxidriver for taking extra 5 ringgit * . Back dorm , bought burger then bath . I started to continue my studies for Fundaments Of Nursing until 1.49 am i went to sleep.
 

ღ 105 my soul

Mind , soul and emotion i think have been combine up cause my mind ask me to be more like that time which i let him go but starting to my emotion been so sad and joy when recall about him . That show i still loved him but i try myself to let him go. In my mind now , the phrase is if he belong to me , he will be with me . If he is not that guy , i just had to let it go away from my soul , mind and feeling . I know that i must be strong like just being myself . To my friend who also so down , think of one word : if  god let u two together , then u will be if not u will never open ur soul toward other partner not that guy u ever loved . Ugly truth being girl , it quite hard to control human emotion if we try to be . But at least try to understand that soulmate with all ur heart and feelings u will never betray . Until now , i trying to let go off him , i really did it but i still loved him . If time can return , will i try to be with him even i know he will leave me . The answer is yes  but try not to be soft hearted when with him cause to let time to decide for us the best way to go  ..... GO girl if u really love that guy but try to understand the mean of love : if u love that guy but u cannot have him try to wish him to get a better perfect soulmate that  show how respectfully u are to love .Try at least to ask him out or start relationship as friend then change to good friend then be GF / BF  but u must be honest to them if u really love them .......=3

ღ 104 mid term exam

Mid term exam i just had started today . Today exam is Antamony & Physiology and Sociology & Physcology  , just two hour plus plus . Last time i just sleep like 3 hours plus only. Then morning , start continue my reading lar . After that , go in the the hall . Now , the uniform completed and we was asked to wait for 2 hours there , evelyn and me walk go back to Medan Damansara about 20 minutes . Then we put our bag there then walk to Pusat Bandar Damansara . Then we go to college to take uniform but ask to come again tomorrow after that go to Ali Maju Cafe to eat then walk to Giant Hypermarket to buy ingredients to cook .

ღ 103 now

Yesterday nite , i was at angie auntie home for overnight with angie . Yesterday  three of us have conservation in room about our feeling or our matter to each other kind working for all of us . We chat until 1 am then we felt so tired . We closed our conservation and went to sleep . Today , i wake up around 10 am and i wake up angie around 11 am . Then her relative take us to eat claypot chicken rice at Jalan Ipoh . Later we going to Medan Damansara and angie going to sleep over at there . I plan to buy chicken to steam or cook . Now , i m chatting with mily , celine , ben and yee boon  .:P
Before that , we go to Pizza Hut to eat ...After that , at Giant buy chicken , sesame oil , eggs .hanger , AIA and the towel  . Back at dorm around 6.45 pm , then clean my thing in closet and doing laundry . After that , i go take bath then around 11 pm , go out with joel with angie in car . Reach dorm around 1 am . Now i m reading my A&P books...

ღ 102 did u

Did u think u are the only one was hurt and down now ? Did u forget we been in this situation when we truly deeply in love with our soulmate that we think is a steady relationship but did we break any promise in past past life time making us now more suffer because of our sin that time . When we deeply in love with our other partner , we just think what can we do to keep the relationship move in a smooth way ! But at least we trust them with whole feeling and heart until we are deeply in hurt when they breaking up with us . At least , we try to save the relationship but no use if they keep denying trusting us there is not anything more we can do to change their mind expect change our personality , mind and feeling but quite hard to change cause we in deeply love them . But we still have each other so keep move on all of us . We trust them and being honest to them when we have problem just to keep the distance nearest to our heart but why they didn`t get it and misunderstand our feeling just a puppy love to them but no a steady love relationship maybe due to our friendly personality and our facial . But if that guy or girl did  try to believe us , the relationship we had before is enough to think again and reconsider again if not , nothing able to open our heart again due to the broken promise .

ღ 101 the mean of trust

If there is no trust there seem to be lack of love between the couple 
If there is no love seem not more to be continue the relationship
If the both of us still loved each other , try to be more have confidence toward the certain people 
If no trust try at least once to trust them 
If u didn`t try at least once , u not the right guy due to misunderstand
If no trust still continue the girl or guy will suffer due to unsecure relationship
If u being urself for a certain reason try to understand at least a word meaning of love and trust
To be honest , i loved that guy even he let go of me 
I try to be more reasonable girl for being not hurt again
I try myself to understand myself again 
Why human lack of being honest and trust when in a relationship ...!!!
Certain rules for certain people 
Like love , try to be love and understand ur soulmate
Like friendship try to be more respect of a person privacy
Like family relationship , try to be more honest between u and ur relative

As for crush , try to be urself the most time cause the next will understand u

ღ 100 keep move on girl

To her , it is nevermind if u lose ur bf but u still got us beside u . As we need is moving on by ownself and we can depend on our friend around us but u and me now not that close cause i now at here u at there . But remember in our heart we are close . That conservation between us is really making me remember him and think of him but i really have try myself to forget him and move on but as u know and i know , we both still loved them . I will give u the best cure is this phrase : if he is ur Mr Right or Prefect , u ald destined to be with him not matter how long u two break up or don`t bother each other . Try to understand urself is better than understand other before having new relationship with new guy or the past relationship guy .Cause if we ownself don`t understand ownself what to do if they don`t understand u for a lame reason or very good reason they had . Keep holding urself on by the spirit i hope for u cause we was in this down situation , we understand ourself . Find out our problem and settle down before the new acceptance of relationship .Girl , u are very lucky to have us around u and i m lucky to have u and the angels around me.

ღ 99 what a tired day

Yesterday i was at angie auntie home for overnight then later in the evening her uncle take us to 1 utama and for there we wait for U82 bus to KL Sentral . The ticket of rapid bus after the one day ticket had cancelled cost RM 2.50 . We go to KL Monorail at Brickfield Road to Bukit Bintang cost us RM2.10 person . At there , we go to Little Taiwan to eat our lunch . Actually today is the mooncake festival event , at Sungai Wang got concert the artist like eric lim , by2 , jj lim and others but held around 8.30 pm. We go to the main entrance of Sungai Wang there is practice by the artist . Then we walk to Imbi where the KL Times Square is located . Then we walk around KL Times Square . Then we take Monorail back to KL Sentral cost us RM 1.60 person cause from Imbi go to KL Sentral . At the Monorail there , we wait U82 to the dorm i stayed at . I again clean my closet and settle everything . Then go to Bandar Sri Damansara cause there is not have bus stop there need to take cab cost us one person RM10.50. Now i m at Bandar Sri Damansara with angie in her auntie home again.Today i feel so tired of all walking lol .....!Today is the most tired day i ever had

ღ 98 to her

To my best friend mily , in here i will like to give u a spirit to move on without having him anymore . No matter what happened between love relationship or life , we will be there always for u no matter how far we are . Maybe i now at kl , i cannot give ur physical care or concern to u but in blog i can give ur mental concern or care . When i m down that time ( break up ) , u always be there for me not matter how busy u are . I m so glad having u being my best listener and friend . Even when u still under ur ex control , u also share ur time to me . I being so wonderful girl to be having u as guide angels .Without him , u still having us as ur closet friend toward ur heart and we concern and care about u . Chatting with u about that really make u girls think that how innocent we are or how stupid we are for trusting and getting laid off within their trust . Now we got our freedom back anyways we still have each other . I hope u reading this blog will make u really moving on and hope u will be happy ok boh !! Remember we being ur angels , we are ur light ok boh to lighter ur pathway and guide u in the right pathway . Trust me , u will find a better and Mr Prefect for u but remember we will never leave u ... . Love will fade but friendship and trust between friend will never fade away if u keep trusting us as ur angels or ur best best friend .

ღ 97 return in kl

I now back in kl where i study at MAHSA University College . Plus my roomate( evelyn )still in ipoh , angie follow me to kl to check out the campus and dorm . Around 3 pm , we reach kl around the puduraya station . Know what : angie auntie not free to pick us up and  we take cab to medan damansara then i put my beg and sudden inside got little ants in my closet damn i need to use time to clean and i just finish bath .  Like around 5 pm , we go to 1 utama where angie auntie can fetch us to her home for her overnight at her home . I now feel like struggle in my own world cause my chest pain but i ald took medicie just can take once time . * Sighh~~!!*

ღ 96 my last day in penang

My last day in penang is tonight . My parent take me to Gurney to buy my medical book then in popular , i wanna buy twilight set book and then after that we go to Tanjung Bungah to eat chinese home cooked food meanwhile sms with friends . After finish food then go back home and blog what happen on my last day in penang . Meanwhile i  watching alliens in the attic in my notebook .
* no picture is taken *

ღ 95 just come back

I just come back from hospital and gurney also . I got reasult that my heart is ok but my heart muscle not in well condition so i need medicine tablet from doc for until the day i back to penang .After that my mum and i go to eat our lunch cause i didn`t take breakfast yet . After , drop by to my old school where i been missing there got memories with my angels and my past memories . Then , we go to ptpl at bandar baru after that howard and i go to watch movie "where got ghost" that is hilarious show but why i am not laugh ! After that go to popular to check the medical book , i find them in there . In sudden , i meet with chantalle after that mum drop howard at his home then we head to our home . Quite funny conversation between me and mum :P ! I now under medication. As for the caring one , thanks for caring me !!