ღ 94 afraid lol

I now still in hospital and just now celine just visit me together we go to eat outside the hospital i stay yesterday nite . I so afraid with what the doctor said just now . He said i need to undergoes with scan at my heart , cause i suffered a lot from chest pain and sometime i feel wanna faint . His dialoysis is maybe the location of my heart not in the right position so that made i suffer a lot of that .! Now waiting for mum and the scan to begin. I so afraid lol !!

ღ 93 in hospital

Now , i m in hospital for check up . I afraid that i might be having health problem , i been a long time ald got this kind of problem . Plus i kind having my chest pain lol . I kind of boring lol ! Now, angie is here and going to go home soon . Thanks a lot to her for visting me . :P ! I just having taking urinary sample to lab , blood , x ray and ultra sound . And i take pain killer , now much better than just now .

ღ 92 steamboat day

Actually, today i think got reunion with my classmates turn out all of them not going and just last minute let me know . Nevermind already , just left angie ,celine and me go to town steamboat place which located nearby sentral college or bata shop there . I early reach there and waiting for celine and angie , celine reach then we pay and find a place to sit then angie only reach there .After that , i only know chin boong at there with her bf better not to be her spotlight , we choose another place to seat . Celine and me go to take food then angie only arrive after that we together take a  lot of ingredient to eat . We also take picture there . Then after finish , we go to Penang Times Square by walking  like just 15 minute . At times square , we go to Nice Day and then to the store at there. !! Now i so so full , i just finish taking my bath and blogging today events ! :P

ღ 91 family day

 I just back to Penang for two week holidays and going back to kl then got exam soon ! Today , my mum asked me to wear clothes i just brought for my 2 months temporary clothes due to my college for student nurses  uniform not yet complete , waiting for 1 month ald  ! Then i not like last time me didn`t use eyeliner for my eye now i use it to make my eye look bigger than the real one lar !Before that , i was vaining with my camera .. Just now only come back from Queensbay Malls , not i drive but my dad drive ...!! Reach there around 7-8 pm then go to Canton-I to eat after that go to Jusco for shopping window for them and also mine !After finish dinner , we go to Digi Shop there to settle thing but why i was teased by a  guy who my father call him naughty guy ..(.he just one year older than me and he keep tease me and my dad tease him mah he said i freak out when i saw him lar...but no lar..i feel so cold mah the real fact he really look cute ....but he very bad lol)    Meanwhile i sms with Kenneth and Howard at the same time ... !! I met with my tuition friend who so same face like Qing Ping ! After that , my mum buy crispy chicken from ShiLin Taiwanese Shop before leaving ! But something  i forget to do or buy at there ! Didn`t have much time to walk around ..plus my heels making my feet pain ...!!......!!

ღ 90 my way

My mum that nite very angry with me cause i sudden said wanna overnight at sarah home but i got my way to make her not too grounded me in my home plus she also know that i just back penang for 2 weeks only not what ! Hehe !! Then that evening she take me to eat char kueytew !  so yummy !

ღ 89 random thing and random us ><

Then after the overnight , during morning angie and me cook for sarah to eat first then we went to buy ingredient to cook for all of us . When we back to Sarah home , we cooked again like sausage , hash brown and french fries . I cooked the mix up of egg , cheese , sausage and some hash brown . We ate with great smile around us . Then Sarah got plan , we played water games and all of us : sarah wore swim suits , min wore green clothes and short pants , angie wore blue clothes and pants and me wore tube top and hawaii pants borrowed from sarah . We made random stuft among us like human chain washing hairs that was so amazing human chains.... We took a lot of random picture *hehe !! Then after that we took bath and clean our mess , we ordered pizza and we danced all along with the music . But some in video clip , but pls don`t see them  :)but truly deeply  random us !  Then around 9 pm , the pizza arrived then we took a bite .... :) i miss our random memories :P

ღ 88 girl wanna have fun

Girls , we love to play :P !! What to do ? We just wanna have fun ! Last tuesday , i went out with my guide angels etc aly , alexis and angie cause some of them busy with their work like that left 4 of us , we went to gurney plaza . I drove my mum car to gurney , my mum beside me and i reached there like 1 pm !  Then we went to A&W to eat our lunch for me is breakfast . Then we went to Watsons , then Cold Storage and Mc Donalds . We went to the seaside and take picture together and also at Ghotel . Sudden , sarah called me and angie asked us to go her home to reunion with all of them ....:) Then around 7 pm , reached sarah dad home . Like around 10.15 , i wanna go home but left motorcycle plus angie going to my place to overnight . My mum was busy around with my bro ! So i asked for Sarah dad permission to drive his car .They sat in the car, sometime quite noisy and i called them to shh...... I reached my home and take my clothes to sarah dad home for last minute overnight and my mum was in hot temper . i was scolded plus angie was given advice ... Then i drove back them and sudden wanna to cook the kitchen have nothing to cook , must drove again to 7 Eleven searching for eggs and things , then brought lok lok and MCD food during dawn .

ღ 87 party on

Yesterday i back to Penang for my holiday around 5.30 pm , know what yesterday i m freaking out due to the contractor and i miss the bus back penang at 9.30 am ! Then at the bus , i sms with howard and later  amelia sms me and asking me what time u reach and where am  i ! Around 6.30 pm , i reached my home  and i just took bath and went out . My mum not allowed me to drive down , she drove me down to vicky home then amelia home to pick them up ! We waited for celine then we went to eat at level 4 the newest restaurant there cause kim gary ald full !We actually going for red box but the red box room were full and our reservation is over   After that , we went to toilet then walk walk ! Then we went to G Hotel ! At there , we sat at G Lounge, we ordered one jug of beer and we shared .... :P  Party On !!  Then my mum fetch us up but raining heavily and i reached home around 1 am ! :P

ღ 86 laugh the whole conservation...><

I don`t know why yesterday from 9 pm or 10 pm laugh and smile until 1 am in the morning ! When chat with howard , our conservation quite funny =P ! And i plugged in my webcam to laptop , i seldom use my webcam ! Plus yesterday i lazy to connect to broadband but begged by celine to connect cause she cannot get clear line from the wifi near my dorm which my roomate and i used when we at home nothing to do unless online , sometime evelyn open her friendster and most of time she download movies from the internet , my laptop cannot support :( ! Then when i chat with celine , we acted cute face >o< !  He did saw everything i made in front of the webcam ! :P ! Then celine asked about why i laugh until my face red , i said funny conversation . I said he wanna be panda bear the 1st in Malaysia ! He said he don`t wanna and don`t know how to be one ! Both of us move here and there cause his neck start pain then my turn cause the position we laid are the same then my back start pain , his also !! We open our webcam from 10 pm until 1 am ! We chat until we both very tired ald ! I smile until my jaw pain and my facebecame red  :P !!Sleep until now only wake up cause i afraid cannot wake up ! My jaw now ok ald !! ^^

ღ 85 what a day

Really today we just got one class only FON ! But whole day of FON  is quiz .....Then last minute , Miss Puteri Intan got another 2 more classes to teach pshyiology ! Waiting for our notes from Ivy and Iman give me his own note and change hp num to keep contact ! And same go to Rafli ! But they got mine i didn`t have theirs ...!! =P ! Another one nite , i sleep at dorm the next morning i m going to Puduraya to take bus to back penang to see my guide angels and my family and friend ! :P !!

ღ 84 my decision

I have make a decision that i now don`t wanna have bf . Cause i wanna to concernate on my studies for this 3 year if i take degree i will wait until i work maybe that time i will find one more mature and protective and i also like him and he also like me . But the important thing , i lend my trust to that Mr Right ! I maybe soft minded in love and hehe (like what jon said : love is blind ) ! I now back in my normal condition without having a guy next to me ! :) freedom ... i still got my sweet guide angels.....!! Who said girls need guy ???

ღ 83 so down T-T

Today we so down cause there is change on our timetable among all the class cause early in the morning we had FOn just  one time and no class , some can back hometown or dorm ! There is change, we got Physiology ! Our letcurer very bad one why don`t wanna finish it whole chapter on last week and today ! Haizz.... !! :( ! So down ....* sob sob !! I ald packed up my thing and wait for the arriving of fri ! :) ! I can see my honey sis and my best friend i miss a lot !

ღ 82 funny ...><

Today so funny lol !Today ,  morning at  here ,it is  raining then reach college around 7.25 am then put bags . Then go to MCD find nichole and shu wen , they having their breakfast there :) ! Not enough sleep ,cause yesterday dawn my senior open her radio until this morning . I look like a panda bear soon ! Then morning , i reply back howard and celine ! During the first period of FON , i so sleepy listen to her lecture and really take a nap nearly to sleep my college friend accidentally rise her voice shock me up ! Then , i have congee for 4 days ald  due to take care of my weight and health ! .... Then i have A& P subject . After that , FON again. I received my matrix card and sms with howard ! So funny ! My college friend , farah and with Pn Habibah! ! Whole class laugh until cannot stand ! Then last wanna to go back dorm , know what farah did : she make up for the two guys ...and the guy ask whether nice boh ...?  so funny~~ !! ^o^ ! Laughing in my mind , cannot stand cause they look like gay .....

ღ 81 matrix card

I been here for one month plus plus going to be two month soon  =) ! We been waiting for our uniform , t-shirt of mahsa college and our matrix card ! Last week , we got our t-shirt of mahsa college and today matrix card arrive ....!! Yeepp !!
Here is my matrix card : )
I been whitening....=) ! 
Howard : urs more nicer lol :P

My Matrix Card For MAHSA

ღ 80 sorry

Sorry eeling ! Don`t angry lar.... I m so sorry ! I promise i won`t talk anything any more with who else about u ! Sorry ! U don`t forget me then this fri should i go fetch u or not ? I m so so sorry ! Pls forgive me lar..At here , i make promise never talk anything more or know anyone like him ok boh ??

ღ 79 anger

Today i quite angry and i  wanna to change the course what i now study at ! but the stupid ...how mean she is lar.....if i know how to do the temper measurement i not need to come here to study .... and pass the time can back dorm , she don`t wanna let us home  ! Even , she said she can back home at 5 pm .... u nevermind mah u are letcurer we are just normal students .....

ღ 78 i m girl...nu sheng lyrics

我是女生 我只是女生....


輕輕的留下一吻 是你對我的負責
你說我還只是女生 不懂愛的沉悶


輕輕擦去我的淚痕 是你成熟的象徵
你說你只會愛女人 還接著笑我笨


但是我心中的愛情 沒那麼多的難題
我只知道愛上了 那就是愛上了 沒有疑問


我是女生 只要愛一個人 就盡全力去爭
不管愛情有多殘忍 不管你笑我笨


我是女生 不管愛多殘忍 我一直都認真
不管是女生或女人 不管你笑我笨 我是女生...


Replay *


我是女生 只要愛一個人 就盡全力去爭
不管愛情有多殘忍 不管你笑我笨


我是女生 不管愛多殘忍 我一直都認真
不管是女生或女人 不管你笑我笨 我是女生...

Pinyin Nu Sheng
wo shi nü sheng wo zhi shi nu sheng *qing qing zai e tou shang yi wen shi ni dui wo de fu ze ni shuo wo hai zhi shi nü sheng bu dong ai de can ren qing qing ca qu wo de lei hen shi ni qian shou de xiang zheng ni shuo ni zhi hui ai nü ren hai jie zhe xiao wo ben dan shi wo xin zhong de ai qing mei na me duo de nan ti wo zhi zhi dao ai shang le na jiu shi ai shang le mei you yi wen **wo shi nü sheng zhi yao ai yi ge ren yong jin quan li qu zheng bu guan ai qing you duo can ren bu guan ni xiao wo ben wo shi nü sheng bu guan ai duo can ren wo bi shui dou ren zhen bu guan shi nü sheng huo nü ren bu guan ni xiao wo ben wo shi nü sheng		I am a girl, I am just simply a girl It is you that is responsible to lightly kiss (me) on the forehead You say that I am not a girl Not understanding love’s merciless Softly wipe away my tears It is you that is holding on to the struggle You say that you only love a woman Still laughing at my foolishness But the love in my heart does not have that much problem I only know about falling in love and that is falling in love No question about it I am a girl as long as I love someone Using my whole strength to fight No matter how much you laugh at my foolishness I am a girl No matter how merciless love is I am serious like anyone else It doesn’t matter if I am a girl or a woman It doesn’t matter if you laugh at my foolishness I am a girl

ღ 77 normal again

Like today i can be like my normal time again without being couple with him. Like now i m chatting with mily and kyle ! Just now i chat with my cousin koko gf , she so sweet but quite boring cause she now having final exam for 3 weeks at tarc college ...I hope she pass with flying colors ...! :) Now i m changing my personality cause i don`t wanna be hurt again so i will be more assertive people . I now know how to settle the problem i had before . I must think out of the box like i didn`t did it before . Now i m going to grow up !

tiffany says:
 i now realized that i don`t wanna be with him ald
 cause why i wanna to be so silly
 he maybe ok without me
 in his mind maybe got another ppl
 why i wanna be stubborn
Emily says:
 yes yes
 sighs
 u got to think like that
tiffany says:
 yup
 without him , a world got a lot of guys also
 right boh
Emily says:
 YES
 URE SO RIGHT
 HEHEHE
tiffany says:
 just now i and adrian got chat
Emily says:
 TOLD U THAT  D EARLEIER
 then?
tiffany says:
 like normal friend lol
 unbelieve i didn`t feel sad
 like i think

Emily says:
 why suddenly can feel like that?
tiffany says:
 then i ask him got read my blog boh
 maybe effect from dexter , u , vicky , jon and others
Emily says:
 awww
 hehe\
 then he got read?
tiffany says:
 yup
 i ask him got angry about what i write
 he didn`t
Emily says:
 hmm
 u talk to him first?
or he talk to you?
tiffany says:
 he talk to me
Emily says:
 oh isee
 =]
  i think he still cant resist u
tiffany says:
 what mean with resist
Emily says:
 cant let go u
 cant tahan you but to talk to u
tiffany says:
 oo..
 that time i didn`t think out of the box
 i might can endure the feeling not to chat with him
Emily says:
 hmmm
 thats really good
 =]
 this is you girl
 =]
tiffany says:
 like me last time right boh
Emily says:
 yes 
 hugs
tiffany says:
 hugs
 i understand how i feel to him
 but i also feel bad
 why he and i start the relationship
 ...
 i m back to my normal
Emily says:
 Hmm is like that one la...u all on is all about love ma
 sighs
 good to hear that
..........................................
I miss u ! Sha lala Lala ...... i  miss u , i miss u so much girls  !! =) i m back to my normal actual personality and attitude ald .! 
I won`t be emo thinking about anything else ...... just back to myself ....... =) !! :P ! 
Thanks emily , dexter , melvin teoh , jonathan , vicky , aly , alexis , my college friend and others :)
Love You Guys !!

ღ 76 early

Today got class for replacement of two week credit hours cause no enough of credit hours . Today start at 8.30 am and go there by 7.30 am cause maybe not place to sit cause my class which full of 100 person include me :) ! Then put bag there and i go to bank to withdraw money not enough for next weeks . And  then we got communication lesson whole day but mr bart quite funny lol . We got role play ....haha * wife , student , nurse and patient ! Then we have quiz and assignment which i finished ald and passed to mr bart . Around 10 am , we got go out to eat at Ali Maju . At that time i quite become a stalker about ching shui and mr lee relationship haha not lar  * take their pic ** ! Then finish assignment , we can go home ald like 12 pm . Today is very early and actually we got another class SDL - we said was sudah dah lari... really we all back to our dorm ....

ღ 75 快乐 happiness

I just have say that i now quite happy and sweet also . I m going back to penang soon. Today whole day is practical of Fundaments Of Nursing at simulation room at level 6 . And we got take picture in group with help of Bibi and next one with help of Hui Min . With a lot of practice , we can be more sucessful nurse . Take a look of this..Before that , morning me and nichole take pic together while we wearing baju . kurung...I now quite happy ....快乐

ღ 74 分手快乐 Fen Shou Kua Lei lyrics...

歌词：
我无法帮你预言委曲求全有没有用
可是我多么不舍朋友爱得那么苦痛
爱可以不问对错至少有喜悦感动
如果他总为别人撑伞你何苦非为他等在雨中
泡咖啡让你暖手想挡挡你心口里的风
你却想上街走走吹吹冷风会清醒得多
你说你不怕分手只有一点遗憾难过
情人节就要来了剩自己一个
其实爱对了人情人节每天都过
分手快乐祝你快乐你可以找到更好的
不想过冬厌倦沉重就飞去热带的岛屿游泳
分手快乐请你快乐挥别错的才能和对的相逢
离开旧爱像坐慢车看透撤了心就会是晴朗的
没人能把谁的幸福没收你发誓你会活的有笑容
你自信时候真的美多了
Fen Shou Kuai Lei !!

ღ 73 愛不疚 Love Not Enough

When i hear this song愛不疚  , i will cry cause he promise he never let go off me when on chirstmas that time , i make promise won`t ...愛不疚  really hurt me . am i really not have enough love to him.愛不疚 , i will take challenge to never cry .快乐 like my friend ask me to sing just now evening .But now i think ald , i make decision to let go ....分手 ald mah !! why i wanna be stubborn

ღ 72 insecure

Why u feel insecure with me ? Cause my look ! My look is what my parent give me to live . U think i might been have another bf , u are wrong , I really love u only u can hurt me and i cry for u more than another cause i really fall for u . U feel insecure why don`t u tell me i will understand and together solve the problem . I go to kl : 1 to study and 2 : to close with u cause ipoh and kl quite close easy for me to go there to visit u . U don`t understand me and it really hurt me a lot . My look just apperance only , my heart is ald belong to u but u make me feel dissapointed cause u didn`t trust me . When i with a guy , i wanna a steady relationship not matter how that guy looks , that guy will be prefect for me enough ald . Admire a person is not same like love a ppl . So think before u make decision. u are dumb , most of time i think urself first than myself . Here i claim that i go to kl to study not to have relationship plus here only the guy is malay or one chinese so what ? u also not pure chinese , i like u the way u are . u hurt me a lot . dunno believe me ask mily or vicky... don`t judge me i hate people wrong judgement the most if u really understand 

ღ 71 cannot stand anymore

I cannot stand anymoreof the pain... I really so painful now.. I guess i need a break to rest . My chest always like that so today morning i just took congee at Mama Kitchen , know what us do boh ? we maybe be stalker ald ... cause we took a quite cute and hansem guy when he sat in front of us ... i didn`t managed to take cause hui min  took my hp and check got her pic boh >< then the guy noticed that we stalk him....i need body check up so pain.. but doctor said i m fine . but i sometime feel so pain until i wanna cry . :'(

ღ 70 what a vain day

Yesterday i got extra class for the malay holiday off 2 weeks so i can back penang , need to sacrifie !The whole day , we have our practical at simulation lab .  On fri nite , i suddenly found out that Sarah coming to kl so she drop by where i stay to meet up ! After the class finish , i back to hostel and i change and take shower and sarah reached cheras , she called me when i taking a nap but i woke up cause the vibration of my hp . Then i went to the Victorian Station at Medan Damansara there to wait for Sarah and sarah arrived with her cousin and her bro too. So her cousin dropped us at Mid Valley , first we went to Food Junction and we had spaghetti and lemon tea , then we went to Pets Wonderlands and we saw a lot of tame and cute pets like hamster i love :) ! Then we went for window shopping at Niichi and Padini but sadly i lost of choosing and i plan to buy when i am at penang . After that , we received phone call from sarah bro and asking us to go to Bandar Tasik Selatan and we went there by taking KTM . At there , we waited for half and hour for sarah cousin to pick us up and then we asked to return back to Mid Valley ! We both were so tired and our feets hurt :( ! When we reached Mid Valley , we asked to go to Southern Court and we went to East court , then we returned to Southern Court after i went to Sarah home at Cheras after calling Evelyn to let her know that i m overnight at sarah home . Then when we reached there , after bathing , sarah started to blog her blog with titile : a weird day ! :) i miss her so much and i miss my NP so much and i spending my 2 weeks with them :)

ღ 69 my hope

My hope now is finish study nursing until degree level and go to work in hospital for 2 or 3 years experience then go to Arab to work at there as nurse . After that , i wanna go to Greece  . I love it  ... this is my own dream and ambition . I m going to do it to be a professional nurse .  My dream to visit Greece

ღ 68 without u

Without u , i m still fine . I really don`t think anymore about getting back with u cause i know what to do ald . I guess i learn my lesson never so trust a guy promise so i will listen to anything more rather than a promise cause u was the one who make me feel so dissapointed with the promise u made with me . Without u , now i have my freedom .... I never feel so relieved before again . Your decision to breaking up might be good thing to me and  u also i know u do all is the best thing for both of us so i will forgive u and won`t angry of u   . I really cannot stand ur temper lucky or not i will burst and scold u hardly if i can but i won`t cause i really love u . Without u or with u that time , also the same expect the different thing is less sms . I don`t mind , but the truth i really stand up with my promise this time that i make by myself : never cry anymore and care about u like normal friend , depend if u are my Mr right , not matter what we will be together again . I am going to wear the necklace with that promise ring ever but i cannot wear cause i allergy wiith the necklace. Cause i know u love me deeply i hope so ...

ღ 67 why not

Why not u be like normal friend after breaking up ? U was the one who wanna to be alone and be friend ! So i follow ur wishes to be friend again. Why u act like u avoid me . Should i be the one avoid u instead of u to be ? I can really easily avoid u but i won`t do it cause i promise that i will be friend with u back . Maybe u think i still cannot let go , u are wrong ! I ald let go but feeling still there but i sure it will fade slower as time moves . So be like friend as u promise to be ! If u still behave like this ,both of us will regret

ღ 66 the truth

The truth when i and adrian mark still together i don`t understand him , why sometime he can be so hot temper to me and sometime be very warm with me . Maybe cause i think it is ok if i let him to be like that . I really cannot stand his temper but because of love him , i just stand . I guess i m wrong and a fool to fall so deeply in love with him . As i think he is a steady bf that will never hurt me compare to the damages make by my ex all . I really heartbroken when he suggest to break up by himself without knowing my feeling how self-centered the guy . I now i guess i will stay lower or i wait for another god will , that guy is my steady and my entire , i only give all my love to him . I don`t wanna to be heartbroken again . I cannot stand the feeling anymore ..I feel like i wanna to cry when i listen to that song sang by raymond lam , that he promised me that he never let go off me . He broken the promise that hurt me deeply like a sword in my heart stuck in the middle . Sometimes , i feel that he is warm and cold to me . What to do : I really love him deeply more than my another ex . What to do : if he is not the Mr.Right , i must let go also . I don`t wanna to cry again anymore for the steady guy i think . Loving a guy so deeply hurt the most T-T !

ღ 65 love story by taylor swift

I kind in love with Taylor Swift , Love Story ^^ love it :)

Title : Love story
We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw you
This song touch my heart and feeling again and show me that love is still around..