ღ 64 how they help me

Mily suggest to listen to Cry by Rihana according to her, when she heartbroken time , u also hear that . But it quite relieved a bit . As for Jon , he ask me to pray and he will talk to me in face to face when he back penang also . Daryl suggest to talk to him back .**sighss , i cannot comfort myself need help ** Aly : he is the past , not only he is the only guy , he is dumb idiot ppl who left me like like that . Vicky : without bf , u still got me the honey twin sis . Sarah : going to be strong and she going to guide me . Amelia : get over him ! all the way they help me ** sighsss , i need their help cause i m down i need to be strong again like form 1 until form 4 **Myself ( my operant conditioning ) suggest to get him back or listen to Kelly Clarkson and all the sad song for break up ....

ღ 63 stop

I need to stop right now about thinking of him ! I need to get back on tracks , maybe i kinda dumb for loving him so much ! Show me why u really wanna break up with me ! Aren`t u got another reason than be alone ! Damn it ......xxx i must stop now focus back on my education plus i kinda of confused with everything , need time to settle down first . I kinda wanna a steady relationship until i die but if this is god will , i accept . Jon ask me to pray hard for myself not him even jon also be so supportive to me . Mily , u are great friend . Aly , u also too .. like u said he is the past just get over him . Vicky and Amelia : U guys also are great listener i ever had .. What i do the best thing is to know u guys when i down u lift me up .....

ღ 62 my guide angel

In my mind , there is flash back of him and i still cannot over him yet ! Another hand , i so miss them so much . Miss my naive princess so much . They been so supportive to me when i m down . I face a lot of problem but most of those i face with my friend . I so miss them a lot . I m going back penang on 18 sept to be with my friend and family. He also going to penang and he ask to face to face , i cannot barely to face him . I afraid that i will never let him go . In my mind, if time can return , i will stop him making this decision . Guide me to that pathway i need to go on without him . My friend , u all are my guide to that right pathway . They all are my angel ......

ღ 61 tired

On morning , we go to Sungai Wang Plaza taking rapid bus and kl monorail to there after bus stop . Evelyn and i go to Old Town to eat there cause ain and her bf on feast day . Then we `like follow King and Queen ` walk around at the Sungai Wang . We go to Low Yat Plaza cause evelyn wanna buy laptop , we walk around there until 2 pm after that we go to Times Square and we go to Elianto buy cosmetic what to do : we are gals ...! after that ain and her bf going back their hometown around 4 pm . Left evelyn and i , we walk around and Etiqa Takaful recommend us to open the account there . Then finish , we walk to kl monorail then go kl sentral .

ღ 60 flash back

Know what ? His image , our sweet memories image always keeping flashing back in my cranial . I really unable to forget u in the short while , i will take more time to forget u . Like jon said : if this is a god will , just follow , learn and grow . Love is blind . I agree with that . I hope guys will know what feeling the girl always face when together or single . If let me choose , i will never let go if time can return . Silly me , worthy that i so keeping him in my mind maybe he ald forget me .

ღ 59 my clinical posting

After this coming Malay holiday , Mahsa for nursing subject we got 2 weeks holiday off but when we come back the next day is mid term exam for 2 days and on 27 Oct , i m going to Kuantan for clinical posting at there for 2 months until 25 Dec 09 ! So my birthday on this year is at Kuantan with my college friend and i will back penang to with my best friend ...^o^

ღ 58 a little over u i guess

I m ok ,just recover from the break up relationship . Girls , i m ok ! Need a lot of work to do to be a professional student in nursing then be professional nurse . I have my own plan ald . Like my cupcake said : he is the past , get over him and find a new one . Maybe i will. A little over u ..!! Maybe not ! Depend on when i see him again , see what is my operant conditioning is ! I really don`t wanna to forget him but i have to , and keep move on without u cause u choose not be with me . I do have faith on u when we together now i guess i have not more confidence to start new relationship what i have to do in my past life . If we meant to be together not matter how u broke my heart , we will be !!

ღ 57 within me

Within me , still got another character which quite bad in behavior . Within me , without him i still got my best friend . I realize that relationship and love is so far to keep in the distance . As i reedem know i claim my freedom back , but lost him ! I still got my best friend like my honey sis , cupcake and u guys all . Within me , i m not alone . I understand them and they also the same , know me better than they could think about me . All i wanna is a steady relationship and steady friendship . A steady friendship i ald gained but as for steady relationship i think i had but depend on future , it is a god will . I will just follow , learn , appericate every second i had with him .

ღ 56 22 August

Yesterday , evelyn and me go to One Utama by taking rapid bus . It took us one hour plus only reach there . We are starving cause at dorm , my senior all is muslim so yesterday start puasa ald . Without money left , we go to ATM what to do : medical book are expensive ! After that , we lost in direction . We went to Little Taiwan to eat . After that , we go to Popular to buy files . We go back at our dorm to stay there

ღ 55 resource centre

Wake up on 7 am today rush go out by just washing face. Not have time . I and evelyn decided to walk to Pusat Bandar Damansara where Mahsa College is there just taking 30 minute from the dorm to the college . I put bag at the table and zoom our seat . Before the class start , i and my ex colleague sms each other . Then my college friend the only chinese guy whom taking diploma in nursing , he borrow evelyn hp first then borrow mine , he played until my battery finish . But lucky , i manage to capture picture at there .We going to have our Anatomy & Physiology quiz tomorrow cause our letcurer Mr Calvin quite angry on yesterday about our perfomance . So we today go to the lab to study or gain knoweldge , know what we doing there but also quite help in remember thing ! This is life at university college !

The lab
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ღ 54 my cupcake

Just for u only , my cupcake i love u guys the most . I m lucky to have ur guys for being so supportive to me even we are far away * don`t use that phrase :' don`t matter how far we are , u always in my heart !! " that hurt me the most . Without him , i will be fine cause i have my all sweetie girl i ever known had been so supportive to me . Like u all said that i deserve a better guy than him , whom u all name him as a idiot , will i get a better dream than i just have a nightmare .

ღ 53 his reason

I guess i know the reason from him meaning that he wanna be alone . I m fine with that reason . As i with him , i know he quite nice and good bf or friend . So i and him now is back to friend stage . Guess that i m fine with that . To my friend : don`t angry him anymore , he want be alone.

ღ 52 295 day stop counting

On sat nite is 295 day , i stop making a count in the calendar cause he and me not have any relationship so nothing to write about . Now i quite feel mix up like what kevin ask me ! So i know i still have a sadness cause i need time to recover from the hurt he made to me . Now i quite feel not pressure from him . For a guy reader . pls don`t promise anything u cannot make it or not u will been hate or make the girl cry cause ur decision on speaking that so hurt . Trust me cause now i feel too . I know i still got friend even i ald not together cause i have most support from my friend . Chinese phrase said because of one tree , don`t let go off the forest .

ღ 51 goodbye

Goodbye what is i m going to let u go . I will be back to where i belong not in ur heart but inside my own mind which keep ur memories with me will be in my memory only not appear in my mind i hope so . This is ur choice to be a friend back not mine so u better don`t regret cause i will not turning back for u after u rejected the chance i asked from u . We now choose other paths , we walk in different paths of life i will move on without u cause i believe that if u regret , i will consider to comfort u only and be like u being so cruel to me . I m going to be ok with my best friend support , i will be back in the place i should be . Like what u mention before no matter how far away we are , but u are near in my heart just don`t use those phrase cause u really hurt me deeply like a sword in my heart perhaps never heal . But anyway we cannot be couple but we can be friend .

ღ 50 let it go

I m going to let it go ! Just left me ! I will remember the sweet memories that u and i share . I never cry for u anymore , i have that enough since when we start the relationship . Many time , u been asking for breaking up and i hope u will be happy with ur decision cause now i free from all the pressure . I guess we become friend like me and kevin anyways i will hope u pass on ur stpm that my wish to u . Hope u will find a better person that can stick with u forever . I cannot be so self-centred to keep u aside like asking u not to leave . End of 11 months relationship got bitter and sweet memories that u give me to keep . Sayonara . My ending with him .

ღ 49 i don`t wanna be apart from u

Why ? U being so cruel to me for asking to be friend back instead of continue our relationship cause u going to overseas next year didn`t mean i waste my time on u because i really love u . I hope i won`t be apart away from u . If that time , i was accepted to Masterskill nearby u aren`t the reason still the same that we are far away . If u really love me and brave to accept anything , u should dare to continue our relationship plus we didn`t know our future at all . Perhaps , we are not meant to be together maybe in a few year we only will find out . If u let go this chance , i will be feel hurt and sad whole of my time when thinking about u but not a sweet memory . I really don`t wanna be apart from u , i cannot let it go and unable to control my feeling towards u .Like what i will do , maybe i cry myself to sleep perhaps like what my ex think that i will kill myself maybe i not sure . I just wanna to be with u not matter what .

ღ 48 cry myself to sleep

Yesterday night , he suddenly ask for being normal friend back . I just unable to make that cause i really love him so much. His reason is he going to take stpm next year and he didn`t have time to sms me , i nevermind with that cause his education come first , he might be going to overseas to study . If u really care or love someone , not matter how far a person is u will always right beside with him or her like what pheng siew can do for his gf , i just trust that love cannot be forget . I quite confused at the dawn , i agree with him . I was heart broken and i cry myself to sleep whole night like 12 pm until 4 . 20 am . I could not able to make myself stop feeling sad and cry . I know if he really love me , i will wait for him not matter how far is he and i will always love him . I cannot control my feeling so i call to my ex for calming me down but it didn`t work at all . If u ( him) are reading this , i really love u and ready to wait for u . I also need a lot of years to be a professional nurse . I feel so sad and keep crying like i unable to let him go . Now got communication like msn messenger can connect whole world together , we still can continue our relationship not matter how far we are . T-T

ღ 47 15 August , at Sungai Wang Plaza

On 14 August at evening or night , evelyn and i plan to go out to Sungai Wang Plaza cause this coming week sat is also holiday but on 29 August , going to have college day cause credit hour not enough for the year 1 . We wake up around 9 am then i call Esther whether she can go or not . After that , we take shower and wash our clothes and drain them up . Around 12 pm , we go to bus stop just down 2 road from our dorm to go to KL sentral , we wait for 35 minutes the bus at last arrive . Our senior who back to her hometown going to but KTM ticket to back to Kedah . Evelyn and i take KL monorail to go to Imbi then we walk to Sungai Wang Plaza , we make some mistake for road direction but we make it to there . We just walk around and see sale for teddy bear and stuff at Hot Market all 50 % off . We buy those bear , key chain , hp holder and beg . I quite hungry and we go to around and see photo sticker shop there and see a cafe but we walk near there , we see Little Taiwan . We decide to go there eat . Evelyn order Peach Rainbow Crystal and Little Taiwan Claypot Lao Su Fun meanwhile i order Spicy Hot Ramen and Jasmine Honey Tea . We feel very full until unable to walk . Then we plan to go back to our dorm at Pusat Bandar Damansara , Medan Damansara . My turn to buy ticket like from Bukit Binatang to KL Sentral cost RM 2.10 meanwhile at Imbi cost RM 1.60 just a distance cost RM0.50 . Around 4. 30 pm , we reach home together with our senior whom buy ticket at KL Sentral . I feel quite happy
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Little Taiwan @ Sungai Wang Plaza


Evelyn`s Peach Rainbow Crystal


Little Taiwan Claypot Lao Su Fun

Tiffany`s Jasmine Honey Tea

Spicy Hot Ramen

ღ 46 my college life

My college life just begin . I been attending class like sociology , anatomy and physiology (A&P) , foundation on nursing ( FON). haizz .. i got problem at my study cause i didn`t take biology but nevermind i got pure science knoweldge . I know friend from palm spring , menara puteri and medan damansara . Last monday , i go to check dental care at pusat bandar damansara . We took picture while waiting .

Evelyn & me @ FON

Yu Lin & me @ dental care


@ dental office ..... we pose



Ching Shui & Jend

ღ 45 my oriental weeks

During Oriental Weeks , i know a lot of friend . Some come from Sabah , Sarawak, Melaka , Ipoh and somewhere esle in Malaysia . Most of them same age with me ! They very friendly and nice so we can communicate. 1 weeks , so tired

Adil & Me

Yu Lin & Me

Ady
. Evelyn

Liu & Jen


Stacy

ღ 44 roomate at menara puteri

Evelyn & Sue

Evelyn & me

Eika & Nora

Evelyn & Eika

Bibi & Ady

There are my roomate from menara puteri but now i change to medan damansara and most roomate is all senior . Those picture capture from the bus to college campus and some at campus at pusat bandar damansara .

ღ 43 gonna caught

Guess what ? On 6 August , we having our shoes measurement the whole day but just sit at the hall like a dummy i think so . We decide to go Mid Valley by taking cab . After a while , my college friend sms me saying that we must faster rush back to our college at Jalan Universiti cause going to expelled to E3 . So , we rush back lucky we make it on time . Escaping soon or later why make us look like a idiot sitting there waiting from 9 morning until 5 in the evening

ღ 42 dorm

A week i been here with my college friend where we taking diploma in nursing at MAHSA university college , i been moved out from the hostel i stay for 4 days at Menara Puteri , i have friendly friend , some from sabah , perak , malacca , pahang and kedah also . Here , it quite nice surrounding but the air here not that good for health . I read out where adrian been studying for his form 6 at acs school at ipoh now have the malaysian records for doing recycle , he been asking me for reading the new about his malaysian records . Quite impressive by their hardwork . Sunday , Ain , Nora , Evelyn and me move from Menara Puteri to Medan Damansara .